The Bad Patient

When you are the patient, are you impatient? Read on for more!

I’ve mentioned a few times the Bible class my husband taught wherein we studied just the first verse of a number of Psalms. The exercise was a glimpse into the complicated emotions that are part of the human experience and our relationship with God.

So, in a week where I've discussed positivity, I'm also admitting a “not-so” secret: I am a terrible patient.

Since you are reading this and not hearing the melodious dulcet tones of my voice (!), it's safe to say that whatever is going around has finally made it to my house and blew right through it. All of us has had some form of this thing -– not the C thing -– but due to asthma, anything like this knocks me flat.

And, hello low frustration tolerance, I am just an awful patient. (Im)patient? (In)patient?

I was up most of the night (and got a coupla more books under my belt!) but was feeling miserable. Then I woke up from my dozing to a headache that wanted to keep chugging down the track to Migraineville. I put the breaks on quickly!

Since I barely have a voice, I’m writing to you today.

The supplements I started this week seem to be helping a bit with the OCD “racing thought” patterns.

But illness and germs unfortunately go hand in hand. I've been dealing with the germophobia all week as others have been sick. But I can’t avoid myself! It's been its own unwitting mini-Exposure Response Prevention (ERP) camp . . . supposedly the gold standard of OCD treatment.

Sickness is also my tutor in the whole “patience thingy.”

Further, it's forcing me to rest, something I realize I have a lot of guilt about. I wouldn't categorize myself as a “workaholic.” As I shared in the episode, “All Systems Go: 3 Tips for Organizing Your Life, it’s more about “reassurance checking;” completing things right away so as not to forget them.

If this verse doesn't speak to the issue, I don't know what does:

"In vain you rise early and stay up late, toiling for bread to eat— for He gives sleep to His beloved." -- Psalm 127:2

Therefore, today’s meme says, “Rest is a form of self-care and self-love . . . Embrace it!”

Thanks for indulging me in written form today. When I'm a little less “Bea Arthur” I’ll record and backdate it.

What kind of patient are you? Chime in below!